Hard truths

Sometimes people you love get sick and don't seem to get better.

Please please please please please please please please please please please please

Everything you work for erupts underneath your feet

I didn't mean to I didn't mean to I didn't mean to I didn't mean to I didn't mean to

You leave your beloved home- you have to say goodbye

I loved you I loved you I loved you I loved you I loved you I loved you I loved you

You reach out for support and find anger. You will never make it. You will never be enough. You have a fatal flaw.

I am done I am done I am done I am done I am done I am done I am done I am done

Things will never be like they were.  You need to close that door.

I am sorry.

Comments

[mamie]

it sounds like you are hurting and i have no real words, just wishing i could give you a hug. so sorry.

[#1mama]

oh honey!

so much hard stuff tht you are going through right now!!! i too wish i could hug you. but there's so much good stuff.....so many adventures on the horizon, so with the other things we need to "forget those things that lie behind, i press onto the prize".... it's hard and in my experience i find that sometimes i live in regret but mostly i have to do the best we can and leave the rest to God.

[carrien]

Hugs, I love you

"You will never make it. You will never be enough. You have a fatal flaw."
THIS IS JUST NOT TRUE!!!

[sara crompton]

all lies-except for the leaving your beloved home part. Rachel, you and Chinua have always done the best you could. You were doing a job at the Land that when I was there, was almost killing 10 people.

And you didn't have any rewards for your work, like we did.

You are awesome and I am proud that you are my friend. You have courage and steadfastness and I can't believe you are thinking of moving to India with 3 kids! You are so brave and courageous!
Take heart, sister, and i will pray that the Lord will deflect any arrows people try to shoot at you.

we love you guys

[Melissa D/ Menaka]

sweet sister, i wish you strength and courage to grow with god in the direction you feel you must,
i pray for peace love and healing to encompass you and bring forth the light that shines so brightly in your spirit!
sometimes we need to take time and space to really meditate on what your needs are-
your faith in god knows no bounds, through his grace you will stay strong and positive,
i hope you can find some solace knowing that you are loved by so many and supported in whatever decision you make-
hugs and prayers.
melissa

[tj]

I dreamed of fog the other night. When I awoke I thought of fog. I used to live in a valley that in the winter had pea soup fog. Fog so thick that you were lucky if you could see one dash on the middle divider line. When it was really foggy you had to just inch along carefully, very carefully looking for indicators that would guide you along. Sometimes, it was so thick I just had to pull over and take a deep breath and wait awhile until it cleared some, or at least until my nerves steadied. Of course the best was just to retreat in one's home and read a good book. Eventually the sun shone again and one could see. Lots of love, Tammie

[shauna]

we love you! And miss you.

[Lara]

Its like you wrote whats written on my heart today.
I think I spent a good time greiving in my heart this morning. All is left is anger.

[jo(e)]

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