Sitting in a parking lot...
In Ontario
close to Toronto
we are visiting the family on my side.
Snow everywhere, piles of it just waiting
but we have no snowsuits
because we live in California.
I remember snow, I remember freezing
I remember mascara running off of my thawed eyelashes
on the bus, the fourteen year old embarrassment.
I am nauseous and pregnant now
but I remember my thin gawky body covered in overcoats that were too big
as I sit in this parking lot,
covered in snow
hijacking wireless
on a New Year's Day
that somehow snuck up on me
like this pregnancy, like being an adult,
like my children growing up away from the snow.
close to Toronto
we are visiting the family on my side.
Snow everywhere, piles of it just waiting
but we have no snowsuits
because we live in California.
I remember snow, I remember freezing
I remember mascara running off of my thawed eyelashes
on the bus, the fourteen year old embarrassment.
I am nauseous and pregnant now
but I remember my thin gawky body covered in overcoats that were too big
as I sit in this parking lot,
covered in snow
hijacking wireless
on a New Year's Day
that somehow snuck up on me
like this pregnancy, like being an adult,
like my children growing up away from the snow.